Photographs: Analogue photography
70 x 70 cm (print size varies)
Drawings: Led pencil on paper
20 x 20 cm each
In 2012, I bought Brownie Cresta Camera from 1955 and a few medium format films at Camden market in London. For years, I had a fear to use the camera and the films.
Since 2019, I have been experiencing changes that have emotionally impacted my feelings and personality in my life. Walking along Southern Ocean beach in Western Australia and watching the water make me feel moments of closeness, moments that everything becomes private and intimate. Considering my ongoing fear of losing a member of my family and recalling memories of the past, I grabbed the camera that I had kept untouched and the films that now are expired. I decided to explore my fear, distance, the idea of something unreachable and far, but also very close to me.
Using the expired films and the camera that I only need to press a button to capture a moment, I explored the gap or perhaps a moment between uncertainty and reassurance in my life. I cannot measure the gap or count the moment, but I can imagine its vastness and immensity. Immensity is the title of this project that I completed during the Traces Seminar.